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"Teacher what good deed must I do ?"

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“The One Who Talked" They say I talk too much — im too loud, too quick, too rough. Told me to hush, to sit, to shrink, but I was built to push, not think small, let them talk at all or blink. They labeled me “extra,” called me “a case,” Neuroed ADHD — like I needed a brace. As my mind don’t stall, it runs full cue, racing past rules they never thought through. I talk too much? Damn right, I do. ‘Cause the world don’t change from the quieted few. I flipped that flaw into policy gold, spoke for the silenced, the cast-out,I am quite litrally that bold. You told me I was crazy in psycohosis? Boys that was my fuel. Your rules .gov? I studied. Your silence? I schooled. Told me to sit — as I stood on the chair. Said I was cocky — I didn’t see you there why would I care. I was loud 'cause I had to be. Carried heat like a courtroom plea. I wasn’t built for a dainty seat — I was carved from the truth of "like unto fine brass, as if they burned in a furnace" as untame...
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If you don’t know your own strength — then how the hell am I supposed to carve out time to teach it to you? Every single child that lands on my desk, fresh outta high school, without the spine to critically think or question — I’m looking straight at you, Peggy Sue. Yes, you. Sitting under your late husband’s mantle clock, wearing a ring from a man you never married, painting empathy onto beige walls that never raised a voice. Where are the men? Where are the builders? These women out here are raising fresh-scented, screen-scrolled, softened mules — legs hairless, hands clean, souls nowhere near the grit of the ground. No callouses. No timber in their tone. Just beard-filtered boys playing Dungeons & Dragons in dungeons they built in their mother's basements. And I’m out here — Sitting still. Scent on the wind. Waiting. Waiting for the rugged ones. The ones with resolve in their step and thunder in their decisions. For the de-masculated to resurrect and remind me what it ...

Story of a John Doe #001

As I was always smart and safe many a story to who I am as I always tell a story of myself then a story of a john or jane doe here is my first on the record. Summer of my 14th yr I was the decoy less duck escaping one of the largest sex trafficking operations when a Maryland Hts detective searched for me for months as he said I escaped this by minutes. Well there is so much no one even knows about me. Why I decided to write about it if I could ever finish it. It being my autobiography lf failures in the corrupt systems meant to help us. It makes your jaw drop what my name is tied to as well the things I been through as in I was never weak growing up I just didn't appreciate any of those situations as if you know what I mean when it comes to unexpected life evebts handed down by the man. Weakness was only in the vunarable positions adrifting me apart from the realities of as in others reality of what is I assure you it is NOT my accountof all. Even to today the massive amount o...

I am HIS PRIVATE collection

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I am what he says I am. As glass grazes across my canvas erecting a coming of the taste.  O how the bitterness of the will. I try to calculate myself as well so slightly slowly as I get to know you lord. Am I a disappointment as well as I want to be. As I do not so I will walk as I did. I will wait as I am to wait. To be still for I can but can not. As I wait for his arrival. For his embrace. His story ,his maker ,his feelings ,his mind. O how I could get lost in his mind. As I will always seek that part of Jesus to know his story to taste his regrets ,his human eyes,his relationship with the land,the people ,the emotions the all. This is reserved for the God of his designs how I would pay as want to demand it  I promise to any amount asked to know that very amount I will pay. Marry me kiss me again my friend for we were only kids when we eloped in the creek. The darkness is near he told me as he lead me down the railroad tracks instead. As I was scared he said fear not I am n...

delusion is a belief that has no evidence in fact — a complete illusion. The cook at the hot dog stand who thinks he is the best chef in the world? That opinion is definitely a delusion. Why ? Because he isn't . Said who ? Aha 😁 now we got a topic of conversation as the angles are many. When does one diagnosis, refute (never always professional),and let people be open in safe places. What do they call safe ? Well the fact of the matter is no one at all can tell anyone what is considered safe until you met people that are analytical as they will root cause it ,sleep it ,eat it breath it as to the other issue they either lie cheat steal or manufacture harness bad or good. You choose the topic we can friendly debate. Open honest evidence based no one it right or wrong until someone hurts. Even then it is a coin toss. All times regulate staying neutral. Are you learning to hold dominion ,react to ,be the best at ? Then you're in the wrong section please sit down. Are you here to fail ? To heal many to heal yourself 1st. Trauma therapy 😭 you can not unfortunately give yourself. Why is that ? You have to tap into sub layers , subconscious awareness as well as be bias ,root cause ,healing the ones that hurt you ummm no fitin your own shoes it is keys to your happiness. Do you feel the need to prove yourself or get mad when you are not heard ? Then heal more. Are you tired of XYZ does someone make you make decisions plant more. Do you not plant then don't expect harvest,someone helping you cultivate then shut your smart ass mouth as the scriptures read " a man that never seeks never seats" also a man that will not listen to an elder and take offense is not ready to learn at all. As I much drop on the tunes outters of my life I am grateful you have shaken your head as to no questions if one was asked you get to know me.

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delusion is a belief that has no evidence in fact — a complete illusion. The cook at the hot dog stand who thinks he is the best chef in the world? That opinion is definitely a delusion. Why ? Because he isn't . Said who ? Aha 😁 now we got a topic of conversation as the angles are many. When does one diagnosis, refute (never always professional),and let people be open in safe places. What do they call safe ? Well the fact of the matter is no one at all can tell anyone what is considered safe until you met people that are analytical as they will root cause it ,sleep it ,eat it breath it as to the other issue they either lie cheat steal or manufacture harness bad or good. You choose the topic we can friendly debate.  Open honest evidence based no one it right or wrong until someone hurts. Even then it is a coin toss. All times regulate staying neutral. Are you learning to hold dominion ,react to ,be the best at ? Then you're in the wrong section please sit down. Are ...

He lifted me up to stand on Great Mountains

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Amberta from home state health as I see you lower case your card. As well you should. Kyle how is it that I can't even get a doctor appointment for my two cards one being Medicaid as well online takes all but the insurance i have. As that is supernatural to me. Has to be I have been here before not paranoid strait weirded out by it. As I must be doing it right or wrong as he GOD guides me through my life as well I trust him. I couldn't be alive just for punishment can I ? As I asked if he needed anything he says nothing litrally remapping my brain 🧠. I was a INFP UFO non however I am now an INTJ. Go figure. As this is why I trust God that is impossible to change your inhouse intuition as to your receptions in the brain like that.  Economics of the world the world being my map the map being my snaps and buckled a shoe. O Benjamin franklin you stole my heart I had to give you the electromagnetic field's as years later one the wind as to this gal I ......

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There is a system of interpretation of words through their numerical values as is called gematria. It is a traditional in my study of theological text to interpret the Hebrew alphabet in English as if you couldnt I did and do try .  As my method of studying my Hebrew as God is quite the challenge to pay attention to as im always a bushel less flamed as I peck. Like a little blue bird running around his house he says he yawns not. I blush. The mondaine of the Bible in English is it to end soon? I hope for not for there are a many a book with millons of facts floating about. I learn he says as I can fast as im trying to retain and retrain. I have read many and more to please no one. I want to be busy he said he wants your mind to heal first. As it has taken so many learned sonce birth hits I successfully mushed my therms neuropathed ibto a burst changing my very own neuroplasticity. I also went from a INFP Myer Briggs Personality type to a Logitician .... how incredible as I hope to ...